I don't know what I'm worried about now. Tommorow school ends at 09.00 am, but I'm not feeling happy at all. My mom said don't get angry so easily and made grumpy face all time. because it's makes us throw a bad words and negative. The days are getting harder and harder than before. I'm still not enjoying my life. Actually there's still a lot of thoughts that I haven't spoiled out, in this case, I'm feeling more ugly, stupid, freak, weird, shitty, undiplomatic, not creative, lazy,being rude to everyone, and angry to myself for not being perfect and being so dump!. 

People are getting pretty, smarter, -and whatever... Meanwhille, I just staying up late now, regretting why I did take my piano lesson and just wasting my bed time and my battery. 

Sometimes life isn't easy, but sometimes is like a whole life time.