I don't know how and what should I do.... I've just gained 5 kg, my arms, legs, thigh, and stomach are getting bigger ( side effect of social media ? ) NO...it's because I care to much. I always worrying things that I'm not ought to. I 'm commited for a diet, But it was a dumb Idea, because I just can't stay over 5 hours spending my pleasure time without munching anything. I 've started a exercise but it was not routine and When I get back trough it My bumps are getting bigger.

Right now, after a Final exams in December, I have to face a new policy in my school, There's a final final test after the final test before the final holiday.

Virtue Lady

Dear mate

Dear mate, If you knowing this what I write and what I feel here. I aware it that I being tired with you some time, and I know you get tired of me sometime. I admit it that I couldn't get what you mean that day... I think you strong enough to keep silent and cool to me now. I can avoid not talking with you for  day, month, even the rest of my life. But, unless I talking to you,  I feel so stupid and feeling like a jerk. I'm really apologize that I don't know how to understanding and apologize to you. Seeing my camroll with a lot of pictures that We've been captured together boost my mood in my lowest point of day

XI science 4

This is the perks of being in the same class with Bella again. Doing the stuid things while waiting he show get started. But honestly I getting more emotional and Act liked psychopath to my friends. This is so Wrong -__-

 The teacher looking so uncomfortable when Us taking pictures, and she moved away awawawaw.... 

Taking from the top view seat

Carmen

So today I just feeling a little bad. Why? first, I can't did my math homework because I never watching the teacher during the class. For some reason I do love math. But, once I lazy to understanding the teacher, the whole confusing  questions invading me, then I become so depressed. 2.  I just love " not to being mainstream" people, I just wanna price my ears and my parents seems not agreed, so I  cancel the plan for pricing my ears. And 3, I cannot concentrate in writing this, coz my sis always complaining about a boy in her school that act like a rogue to the girls . ( for some reason why she hates him so much, because he used to like my sis, but now he's in relationship with someone else while flirting a different girls.) 4. My Mandarin test, piano lesson, and school's tasks always put me in the lowest point of my day. 

I must aware that I'm not good a Physic, so I always got bad marks on physic, so I must join the re test class and God  blessed me amen, I get good marks such A or B+ . But, why I always failed on the first tests?! this is such an annoying problems in my life. 

  So I think this blog is just my place to mumbling everything that doesn't going well on my day. I just loved this blog . 

demons in my head

today i have to finished at least 3 chapter for my mandarin test on Tuesday. I think I'm in my highest depressions point. Lately I got too many problems, I eat a lot without getting full, feeling very lonely, and I'm on the downgrade of friendship ( again). Anyway I have to wear glasses, Lately I can feel my eyes burns ( side effect not wearing glasses immediately ? )

My bro is turning 12 today ! :D yeay!

Perks of being a WallFlower

A Sweet esape

So Last week we came to this sweet little cafe. I'm in love with the ornaments and decorations, Vintage tumblr spot everywhere :). 

 Damn you little metal bin

red velvet for life ! > :0

weekends

 Last weekends Me and Bella spent a night for a sleepover. We thought my parents out of town, so I invited her to sleep in my house, then the next day we joined the other classmates to the summer swims at waterpark.