I don't know what I'm worried about now. Tommorow school ends at 09.00 am, but I'm not feeling happy at all. My mom said don't get angry so easily and made grumpy face all time. because it's makes us throw a bad words and negative. The days are getting harder and harder than before. I'm still not enjoying my life. Actually there's still a lot of thoughts that I haven't spoiled out, in this case, I'm feeling more ugly, stupid, freak, weird, shitty, undiplomatic, not creative, lazy,being rude to everyone, and angry to myself for not being perfect and being so dump!. 

People are getting pretty, smarter, -and whatever... Meanwhille, I just staying up late now, regretting why I did take my piano lesson and just wasting my bed time and my battery. 

Sometimes life isn't easy, but sometimes is like a whole life time.  

Pardon my skill

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Metaphor?

Tomorrow school is starting and it's sucks. But just for tomorrow and the next day I got Easter holiday! Yey!. So last night I have shouted again, my mom said "lately you're angry for no reason, maybe we should bought you to a  mental hospital". So I don't  know why mom being so genius last night, she asked my cousin to moved to my sis room ( okay...I looked so mean here). And this time, at the moment, at this second specifically, my sis angry and got a bad mood. She angry because she haven't done her biology studying. 

I think she's gonna be angry if my cousin do the same thing like what she did in my room. But I don't hate any other my family member ( okay... My grammar is going worst). So just wanna cronglatulate my sis by now :D but she's in the bad mode ? Tought. 

Summer

This is the advantage of having a holiday while the 12 grade got the UN examinations. 

I can barley laying in my room, Practice my piano lesson, and of course browsing. 

But, have i told you blog about my night suck-ness?. So my cousin staying  in my house (Specific-ly in my room) for her job, i don't know how long she went away from my room (that's so mean ).. but my mom said jut for a while. at  first I was wondering why was my room? my mom said my room is bigger than my sister room. But there's my bro's and my parents rooms and that's makes sense. But the longer i held my uncomfortable position, the more my habit gone worse. I'm being lazy to cleaning up my room. My Things just gone and i don't know where they were, so sometimes I'm feeling angry and feel so so mad at night and my room condition just made me sick. Sometimes i just shouting and yelling, about some people in school and this room condition.

My mom always told me the same things over and over again. Might be my dad a little care about my room condition and my health too. 

Girls always didn't want to share cupboard even with her mom, but this is not my rule. That just the other girls rules. Sometimes i just aware that my face and my health getting bad every day. And this condition affect my marks, health, and my Psychiatric. I just hope this is gonna end soon.... and i hope she's not acting messy with my room.

I'm in love with the temporary tattoo which match with the polaroid pictures.

Vague

These past two weeks i have been spending a lot of my time for reading the John Green's novel. I'm a little bothered when my classmate asked me to do some project after school. But, i spent a pretty good time. 

We went to the golf field, and the field was empty because the rich people are to busy to play golf in the week days. The golf field was more looked like wonderland thought. 

Scholars

 tomorrow school is starting to depress me. 

I just clearly remember the school bells are ringing angrily, the students that chopped each other with 'em faces. 

The most annoying thing was.... When I tried to comb my hair and get ready in the bathroom before entering my classroom, someone was entered the bathroom and we staring at each other for a while. Don't judge me, but I swear I cannot let my hair looked like being raped by the wind.

Gloomy

Counting days to the new examinations. I know... i know... My school was depressing as hell, and i still don't get it why there's so many pretty girl still looking pretty in these test period. 

But Thanks to God, I'm still can enjoying my reading and taking pictures.

Tomorrow is the math test day, the last test in this week.

My lil bro's Project 

school started at 09.30 today so i can study my historical test. enjoying my morning and play cookie run. well i geass i should post more after i get back from scholl

Sunday

I just Finished studying economy and enjoying my day so well.

mom just know how to make my day brighter.  Sister and her made some homemade fruit sundae for us.

             DIY flower crown that i made my self from picking un-famous flowers. Pretty messy right?.

My Friends My Hero

The shit-est movie that i've made...........
oh no..........
i act like truly an idiot here, because i don't know how to act. Since my Group have no choices and the time was not so long.
The teacher said if we went out of datelines, She would give us bad marks.

the fault in our stars

Havent spent my time with a lot of books because the exams has appear.